Cutthroat kiss

2007-11-30T17:50:00.000-08:00

To the loving memory of Rakinah bte Mhd Jailani.
For all the times u have brighten our life n made a impact in our soul
thank you i (danial) n all the ppl tat love u will never forget u in our heart u came in our's u will stay for ever more.

Rakinah bte Mhd Jailani (qeena)panda(qeenish)
08.08.1991 - 29.11.2007
We will miss u n love u
Al-fatihah.

Status: in a relationship

2007-11-12T09:57:00.000-08:00

Lets commemorate the double eleven seven(11/11/07). Peace tiada war eh? Though, it feels quick? Gyeah, nvm... we will renew our vows & make it a better place. Don't pick a bus stop eh?

Last weekend, I had "successful collision". I got 2 interviews & I've accepted Haagen-daz as my next ring-a-thing thing in my head. Well, I just hope that I will be accepted by the head. I wish this job won't be boring cause damn! I need to work 6 months for it.

Another relationship means a new life to me. I want to learn accept people for whoever they are & cherish them from the tits to bits to mits! (Guess, i dont know what does that mean) Yadayadayada. This new blogskin seems boring karna tada picture horrrr.

Hands up high and buat the mangkok shape. Pray that my results for O'levels won't be as unsatisfying as can be.

"Qeena "wan" me!!!!!!!"

2007-11-02T23:46:00.000-07:00

Hello, it's still Selamat Hari Raya & I just feel like I should fix the date to celebrate it with friends. Sorry, some of the people in the first picture aren't part of my family members. I realised that my family(One beautiful pair of parents & 2 sisters) photo is not uploaded to the computer & I dont know where is it.

(The best place to be in between the person you love/like)

The three of us went out tt other day for the first time & Gyeah! I cut my hair shoulder-length short for the first time again! Damn, I am sorry if I've made you all worried tt day but still we can have it during the holidays (Smile)

Woah! So fast dah nk abis secondary school life eh? Im gonna miss the people who brought joy and laughter to our class. Harap-harap, we tiga can go go to Jcs or Polys. Hope we both can still get in touch. You both were the one who changed me to be carefree & love whoever I am right now. Thanks babes!!!!

2007-10-21T07:20:00.000-07:00

Buona notte! I feel italian cause I want spice in my food. It has been eggs, eggs, eggs for these past few days. My stomach is in critical condition! Well, i do have the passion to cook but since my kitchen is not bountiful with the ingredients, I rather not cook. I cooked tom yam with prawns. Prawns are my most desired!!!! Though prawns are high in cholesterol. Do you know that? It is a factual fact!

I'm about three days closer to my chemistry papers & yet I'm three-quater done. Yes? I found out that I am not fully prepared after I did two papers. In my theory, section A was not the main problem. It's my section B. Kebaaaaboom! Without section B, there will be no A in my science. Yes, this average kid wants an A in her science. Hey? I have the determination :)

History is on this coming friday & I am not a chapter done. Im just stuck in between cause every history revision, I seem to doze off. I need 10 times the Redbull mans! Brrrrrrr, this chill is killing me. Fear, May i see As and Bs in my result slip. Only one C, due to my damn Malay!! I scuk in it. Tweeeeeeeeest!

2007-10-10T09:15:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya in advance, dudes & babes! Its so pathetic that I've only got one day to spend my Hari Raya. Im having my official Olevel on the 18th kay? The stress is right to the top of my head and down to the bottom of my feet. God gracious!!!! Im getting fed up with myself cause I got everything mixed up. Carboxylic acid? Alcohol? God damn! Copper is blue and not green!!!!!!

Pattyku, I am gonna miss you like so much. You've been there when I need you & You've been there wherever you can be. From the study room to the cafes. From vivo to tm!! Hahahaha. We both owe each other a trip to vivo swing. I miss that place. Meet yah in 97645678987653468 hours!!! Selamat KAMU!!!

Gyeah! I wish kamu semua good luck untuk Olvl kamu and Yay yay raya with you family as happy as you can

A kiss from me to youuuuuuu. IMD, IMZ!!!!

2007-09-19T22:27:00.000-07:00

This is the results after 14428 seconds of mind bogging. Most of the time I was searching and selecting the pictures. Yep, I know it is simple but I was really choosy at selecting them and putting them together like a piece. Read "View Source" and I know it is very complicated. I got myself confused but not worth to be confused about this afterall. Heh! Understand, you understand? I seem to talk more to complicated sentences rather than simple, basic, understandable onces.

Maybe the teacher who will be marking my composition will take his/her two hours with my composition. (Evil laugh) I know, I should try to improve my language. (Peace)

Actually, I have fallen more in love with indonesian songs. That's why I end up posting Gita Gutawa song. So graceful like swan. Untuk Zareezaku,

Send me more pictures, sayang. So I can edit it for you and make you happy, jovial, contented like care bears. Hahahaha. Kamu care bear! The goldfish one ;)

Okay dokie! Nothing much to write in this blog. Dudah eh dudah dey!

2007-09-15T09:48:00.000-07:00

Phenomenal, I fear playing games like the army kind of games. I have the phobia of having something/someone to pop out right in front of me out of a sudden. I do sob when I watch a saddening cartoon movie/show. It was just like a touch & go. I see you cry, I cry too. Grrrrrh!

I have so many things to do & yet, Im such a lazy arse. I need to brush up my maths and get an A1. My tutor said that for me, getting A1 for maths is nothing impossible. Oh Qeena, get your lazy arse off and get things done!!!

I watched "Little Secret" just now and I feel so classical. I want to depresse the keys of a piano with Beethoven songs or something better. But "Ode to joy" is cute :]

It has been about 4 years & yet, in our ups and downs, we do still am together. No matter how much I put things together, I still can't hate you. I can't predict if we are going to settle down together one day. It is still a yes-no answer. Oh however, you are such a great friend. May the force be with you, Patty!!!!!

2007-09-13T20:59:00.000-07:00

Guy: I think Raihan don't baca surah kursi when he nk kahwin tau
Qeena: Oh, emmm. I think he nyanyi nasyid lah

Guy stared at Qeena

Guy: Raihan, kawan I lah. Apa lak nasyid?

Qeena -.- (I didn't want to say out the guy's name as I don't want Raihan to be embarassed or smth)

YEP! That is how slow I am. So blurr gitu kan? However, I felt so tired & giddy yesterday and that is my excuse (Peace). Hoorah hooray, I just want to wish all the Muslims "Happy Fasting!"

Mum gave me tonics so that it can make me feel strong. Yesterday, I felt so cold and I got sick. Hee. You know, I fall sick that easily. I need to take care of my health mans. More tonic (vomit) please.

Alamak, this blog is so random lahs.

2007-09-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

A few seconds to minutes & damn, time is just mindlessly ticking. I was just dumbstruck when I carefully read through the question for my Social Studies essay. It was ever complicated but I just sat there and didn't raise up my hand to ask the teacher what does the question mean. Can I cause I am not sure? I spent an hour for that question which leaves me another 30 minutes to the end of the paper. Baik kan?

I hope the people around me understand the situation I am going through. Being self-centered is the best way to be right now cause omg, Olevels mans and it is my future and not yours. I just hope this 308 seconds writing a blog post may release stress.

2007-08-30T03:53:00.000-07:00

Fireworks:
Kenduri:

Exams over is never! Omg, my mind my leg my hands.... not overworked but laid back. I ever consumed too much redbull so that I could be attentive in class. However, there were side effects. This exam, I am gonna work like pain in the ass!

Okay shuddup and don't think of examinations for now.

My appetite is new. I want Japanese food, Arabian food and many many food. If I am fat, I am gonna cry my ass off! Hahaha. I hate working out and the only thing I can do is to shit more. F**k care about my figure, mans! Im born to love food. So endure it!!!!

Danial and I have been going through cafes. A cafe near Masjid Sultan is to be experienced! Tuesday was part of our lover and friendship 4 years anniversary celebration. I couldn't afford much valuable presents as it was a last minute plan. Our anniversary actually fall on the 18th August 2004, I guess but we had it 30th August 2004. I needn't need to explain. But thanks yah kamu? You have been there for me always.

Now, we still have more to experience like Sentosa, Jurong Bird Park, Zoo and mana mana lahs. For now, it is cafes!!!!!!!!

However, I love my cats more and I want Ratatouille

2007-08-26T05:32:00.000-07:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN, DEAR ZAREEZA

Yesterday was the ever best day. I spend my eight hours with total bliss and everything nice. Terima kasih sesiapa yg make it the better than ever it was planned. Things are best when it came unexpected, omg!

Sweet sixteen was celebrated an hour late. We all met up in the last cabin. Thanks for much encouragement from Arifin to not ever make me smile and be mute for a couple of hours. As we arrived at Cityhall, we waited awhile for Badridd to arrive at Cityhall. We all ended up going to Pizzahut without Badridd.

Lets make everything cut short with a little bit of sweetness to it.

As we all were served at Pizzahut, Arifin and I headed off to search for a cute cake for dear Zareeza. We went back and ate our pizzas and soup. It seems that pizzahut momment are so clear like how a perfect picture can be. Arifin's and my plan were kept mystery for awhile cause I dont want to let any drop of suspicion to dear Zareeza.

Happy brithday happy birthday happy birthday to you. Zareeza looks like a blurr sotong but rather cute. I gave her the present and sweet kisses. Omg omg omg! We all headed to Marina Square and slacked. To esplanade and stood. To somerset and pool. To ngee ann city and slacked.

We took NR7 to sweet home and the bus ride seem to be like a roller coaster ride. I set at the very back. I was at the centre. The empty space in between the seats in the bus was fear. Fear to fall and fracture my nose. However, I still spend my bus ride with dance and mute sing. Come on! Bus rides are not made to be boring. It is suppose to be adventurous and fun!!!! Total fun.

2007-08-17T18:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAHKU, SEVENTEENTH AUGUST

Padukatatata. I am soooooo contented but however, not as much as I wished cause I can't see fireworks kabaaababish with Danial.

Yesterday was Family Day for me and my family&I went to marina bay to see the fireworks. Late, I was but I am not at fault cause Ana couldn't find the best cardigan to wear. However, I needn't need to go there by train. Dad rode us there and we parked near Kallang where we had to take a short trip to city hall.

I was enthusiastic when I was on my way there. Come on! When can you ever get the best place to watch fireworks except for NDP. Our seats were located at the very top and wow! the best seats. Fireworks last for 15 minutes and I want more more more. After that, we waited for a few minutes. Damn packed okay? & we got the chance to go through the stalls.

Kebab, sotong bals, turkish ice ceam, sharkfin soup, eh eh eh? I want semuanya! Hee. We all bought the food that we want and sat down at the nearest place to enjoy our food. Full like kebabooom!

We went to Jalan Masjid and had our best drinks. Everything the best best best. Hahahaha! Home, and aku soooo penat begitu.

2007-08-11T22:59:00.000-07:00

"Spiderpig Spiderpig Spiderpig! The friendly neighbourhood...."

Hello to sweet sixteen and goodbye to fifteen. Semalam was the best, kan kan kan? I am suppose to do my revision but yet, I just got ready and walked out from the house to meet Danial. We watched The Simpsons at Marina Square and I had my lunch there. Alamak, and kfc was pathetic. I tried the new cheese bbq chicken eh? It was nice and nice things are never meant to be in little amounts. Come on, kfc.

Yesterday, I was the one who wants anything or everything. I just want everything that was right under my nose. I want ice cream, i want hot coffee. I realised and I understand how he felt. But I cant stop but to ask for more. Dammit! The way we spent our night was splendid and I felt contented. A cup of hot cafe latte with dipped marshmallows on a swing. The ever best hang out and I felt so relaxed and carefree. Everything was at the back of my mind. Laughters of the people around filled the empty space of my mind. I knew people can never ask for more, but I did. I asked for snapple. Hehehe.

Guess, mum is true. I do need a rich man in my life. No offence eh?

We both headed home at 11 and I didnt realise tt time pass that much. I felt like dozing off cause of the chocolate and cafe in my latte. All we need is 15 bucks eh?

2007-08-04T06:49:00.000-07:00

I want to be with my december. I loathe august, september, october, november. I aint gonna enjoy much during hari raya which I usually do every year. Grrr! Apa lagi? Mummy said she is going to buy me the best baju kurung for my birthday present and it looks like ill be celebrating it for 2days cause one for mother side, one for father side. So fair and square shape.

However, I have been struggling in handling my food intake. So it means I am not currently stress wit my upcoming major examinations only but with my damn food disorder. Food disorder cause it seems tragic to me. You see, I have never gained so much for these past few years. So now, I had gained about 3kg in a month. So very wonderful powerful bloodyful. Hahahaha. I am mad right now(Exclamation marks)

Damn, I need to do exercise and keep track of my foodintake by using Recommended DietaryAllowances, Singapore Health Diet Pyramid and Singapore National Dietary Guildeline. But hell with that, easy peasy, I go on diet as in eat a meal a day and damn with the 3 times a day. Wow! Aku so geram

2007-07-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

You will become fat if you eat too much chocolates. If you are fat, you tend to be lazy. Okay, I had too much chocolates for a week. I will snap a few chocolates and satisfy my taste buds while watching the tv programs. So now, I am always lying on the bed and just fall into a deep sleep. I had chocolate milkshake just now. A combination of ice cubes, chocolate ice cream, milk and chocolate bars. So chocolaterific!

However, not only chocolates but the things that is on my mind which lingers in me each and every time, makes me sleep. I just want to forget all this and fall into a deep sleep where you can only dream nothing but fantacies. Things that would not happen. It only need a miracle.

Wow! Wow wow wow, aku update lagi nnt eh?

2007-07-05T00:35:00.000-07:00

Hey ho & high and lows, people oh beautiful people!!!

Currently, I am listening to Mika. Lalala, I feel like I want to be a butterfly, flying high in the blue sky. Feeling no worries in life and everything is so nice. I wish I could say that life is wonderful. For now(drags), I am feeling exhausted. My brain is in pain, you know.

However, I have deleted my friendster. No updates and it started to turn as yellow as an old book. Nothing great to display. All I know the best way to find great friends is not through websites. The best way is through schools and courses. Look who the hell is talking. But who agree with me?

Oh kay, I am some sort of a "feeling dissappointed". I thought I could go for NDP preview or better, the real one! My bad, I couldn't go. Canceled! My one wish is to go NDP. People screaming(including me), laughters, wow-ness and many more. The best part of NDP is the fireworks fireworks fireworks. Argh mans! I never forget the day I first went to Kallang Stadium. I was P5 and still yet as innocent as can be. Oh oh oh, we sang, we danced and pledged too. My eyes now shines like a pair of diamonds.

Mum booked some tickets for NDP fireworks. Mum, thanks cause at least I can sit on that chair at Marina parade. But well, I need an official NDP ticket. Grrrrr-rah-rah-rah! Qeena am pleased with whatever she has.

Oh kay kay kay, I am gonna shoot off to Century to buy a black shoe for work. Yeah, my first work. But eh? It is only for saturday. Since I have Olevels to concentrate, one day of work day does not kill right? Oh hahahaha, now I want to get ready.

2007-07-04T07:14:00.000-07:00

Life is pleasant. The weather is very humid today and I feel like I want to escape this heat by beauty sleeping. Oh well, homeworks are piling up and I know eventhough I may not have the time, I know I can finish them all. Oh kay? No more talking of sch, nnt my post mendak.

My sister's bf bought me an early bird birthday present. Oh I am so really happy!! After much patience, I got an mp3. Hahaha. Free lagi. Only god knows how lucky my sister is.

Aiya, Can i tell my grandmother story next time? Nari punya tk gerek hor.

2007-06-27T05:03:00.000-07:00

Life is not great. Damn! Im stressed one son of a gun. I have yet to complete my fnn coursework part A by next week. Yes, rakan-rakan. I haven't finish that coursework. Then the coursework part B have to be done by early July. Boleh naik gila tau? I have done most of the coursework and I am so happy!

This semester, I am gonna work my butts off! I am not gonna leave any homework undone. Do revision especially my physics. Qeena shouts "Physics aku sucks! Aku tk faham a.c circuit, tk fhm tu and tk fhm ni. Baiknya cikgu!"

Lagi-lagi, next week, I am gonna have my oral. Both english and malay. My mly teeeeetttt!!!Confirm, I kaku and gagap. Oh yeah? Nadiah, nnt float keluar eh?

2007-06-24T22:19:00.000-07:00

A bright sunny sunday. I woke up early to go to syarahan lagi. I realised eventhough you are old, you can still be young at heart. Seriously, aku cakap 100 percent guarantee! Well, dad was strumming his guitar as usual. He like "macam faham". In other words, like as if the person(my dad) know. He was trying to play the oldies song and ohps! out of tune daddy. I think for his next birthday, I will get all the chords so he can play any song he wants. The one whole stack of it!!

Mum, on the other hand, was doing aerobics. "One two three four! Two two three four!" Jumping and stretching around the room as she followed the steps on the tv screen. Mum, hope you can lose weight yeah? Dad, hope you can play the songs you want yeah?

We three went to the mosque at Jurong. But before that, we had breakfast at the coffee shop nearby. Then, I followed my aunty to River Vale and ate nasi padang. Before satu petang(1pm), I had already ate one mee soto, one kueh, one nasi padang, one milk tea and one plain water. Okay boogay! I want to sleep and i want to finish my homework later. Tooootoooo!

2007-06-19T21:21:00.000-07:00

Suddeny, Utt is love. Oh oh oh uuuuutttttttttttttttttt!

Open your eyes wide open. Wind up your dead brain. Think again, another two months to Prelims and this is the only chance to score well for Olevel. Like seriously qeena, you have been repeating this since January & you still haven't change. Dammit!

2007-06-15T09:56:00.000-07:00

I am becoming more fascinated in malay songs after watching APM just now. Gita Gutawa sang in the show and yet she only age forteen this year. Seriously, she is damn adorable.

I am going to online for only awhile. This is going to continue for the next few days. I am going to start intensive studying, mans! I am jealous to see mum scoring A. I know I should be happy for her cause even at the age of 50, she can still continue studying to get a higher qualification.

All I want to do now is to read a book which I had bought a few months ago. Now it is left untouched. Brush up my english. My english is like a child's book. All with the simple common words. Sometimes, it is good getting complicated.

I can't bare to leave the both of you. I have abandoned a beloved. Now, dot dot. Mans, why do the 2 cats have to make problems? I love them really eventhough they may be dump, noisy & irritating. They seem to be very loving to me. They are family thou we are not related by blood.

Life, Up down Right side Left side. Hey! I need someone to go through my every single downpours with me. I mean a friend cause well, simply dot dot. BF also has his own gigantic problems. I do not want to create any more zig-zags to his life. & I don't mean he wasn't there when I need him. I am just.. confused.

2007-06-11T19:32:00.000-07:00

Hey ho to the beautiful people in the world. Yesterday was cooking day for me. I cooked dinner. This is taken like a practice for my practical Olevel tomorrow. Hell yeah, I am going to cook lagi today. Yuppy gum gum!

I am going to work on my presentation later. Hell no, I am not going to tell you how it will turn out. I am going to meet Zareeza. It has been such a long time I've never seen her. Weheee! And I hope that I can start my revision today. Gosh, I slacked okay? It is not a good thing cause Olevel is around the corner. Shucks.

Last sunday, I went to Carousel with my family members. Love it!

We all baca Al-Fatihah so that nenek can live longer and be healthy always

This was on last last sunday. Outing with my maid. My maid pose like model.

2007-06-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

High fever, stomachache and a very bad headache. That is what I am having right now. I was about to go to school but in the end, I didn't. Actually, I want to go to school and do my practical trial. Then I realised things get worst & my temperature went to 40.2 degrees. So I didn't go to school and I missed my practical trial mans!

2007-06-03T07:12:00.000-07:00

"Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella"

I am back, & only god knows how tired I am right now. Today was love but it end up with a downfall. Nadiah, Im so cheering up myself. Listening to "Ben Kweller- Penny On the Train Track" So I am currently viewing Hakim Mendak's blog.

I woke up so early. I had a very early breakfast & I had to force myself to eat cause last night I only ate an apple-a-day-keeps-the-doctor-away. We went to the mosque to attend a Syarahan at Jurong. My family and I went to cold storage to buy milk and food. Then we all headed to my grandmother's house. We headed home and forced to rush to meet my ex-maid.

I was damn hippo-di-dap happy when I met her at last! After 2 damn years. She really changed alot, and memories of us still kept fresh in my head. She was a girlfriend, a best friend, a close friend and a friend to me. We all waited for sister's BF at a indonesian restoran. It all got sucked up & we headed to Banquet with sister's BF. I ate alot & my stomach damn pain siah.

We went to find foot wears but my ex-maid had to rush home. My family, sister's BF & I, of course, did shopping. My mother, sister & me bought each a footwear. Total yayness! We had another lunch at Anderson ice cream(Aku so remember Hakim buy me chocolate dip eh Hakim hor?).

After that, we all waited for my dad to pick us up. Now, I am back home & I think aku boleh pengsan. But anyway, (Untuk kau tahu, dah bagus eh aku layan kau walaupun aku dah penat macam gini.)

2007-06-01T22:18:00.000-07:00

Actually, I want to blog but I don't know what to write.

Home is the current place Ill be at for the rest of this saturday. Maybe Ill revise my science & Ill be an expert in both science and maths eh? Tomorrow, I am supposed to hang out with my sister and ex-maid. My ex-maid(when i was P4 till P6) had some problems and I cannot conferm if I am gg out. Oh sad, very sad. It has been 2 years I have never seen her.

It is not fair. I don't have any money with me you know. I need to pay 20 bucks to my sister. Oh no, I want to go bowling/ice skating/roller blading now dammit!

2007-05-30T23:36:00.000-07:00

Now, I knew what you meant and please forgive me.

2007-05-29T00:25:00.000-07:00

I just want to be care free. I want to be more confident in myself and have a high self esteem. I want to do sports like roller blading, ice skating, bowling, rock climbing, kayaking, canoeing or drive a go-kart. How fun can that be right? Like a kid learning new things. I am yet so interested. Being a sixteen, I want to do new things. It has been a long time I never do all this. The last one was pool & that was like last year. I am bad at that. Hell! But now, I want to bowl. Yeah! Bowling or ice skating. I repeat myself. Bowling or ice skating. Hahahaha.

Zareeza, lets not go gym. Lets try a new sport like ice skating or roller blading. But eh? More expensive. Wow!

Manda, Nadiah and myself went out just now. We berbual kerepek

Guy: Dear, what drink do you want?
Girl: (thinking) Whatever....
Guy: Seriously dear... What drink you want?
Girl: Whatever lah!
Guy: Argh, one last time eh?
Girl: Okay. I want Anything....

Hahahahaha. Crap kan? What about a drink called "Aah!" Short and sweet kan?

Girl: I want aah!

I wonder what tt guy will be thinking. Hmm. You guess?

2007-05-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

I am in a dilemma. I don't know what is wrong with me just now. Before my feet stepped out of my house, my mind was set. I was confident so that I won't shiver. This doesn't seem to work even. I feel like redoing my Olevel. I know my makrs wouldn't be that great. Maybe a just pass or something. Oh mannnnnnssss! It need a miracle you see.

Im such not in a good mood right now. Not fair you people did it with the right points. Me, out of point. Should I redo or continue focusing on my other subjects?

"Circle circle dot dot" Listen it with high volume. It is better!!!!!

2007-05-27T04:28:00.000-07:00

Another sheep counting and I am getting ready. I've dyed my hair. Thanks zareeza for accompanying me & sorry tt I have to get back home early. I need to study again seh.

I've fallen inlove with someone new. It sound tt scandalous. But hey, it is a plush toy. So cute adorable big enormous wow teddy bear. It can replace the cookie monster. Hahahaha! Qeena so evil, I will leave the cookie monster alone.

I know what I will get myself this year's birthday. Another necklace with a Q. Nice kan :]

2007-05-26T06:43:00.000-07:00

Exams. Another two sheep counting. Oh, say tt I've gone crazy with all this peribahasa. No! I am gg to be strong. People say working hard leads to success. I still hold it in my heart and soul. Gosh, when mother tounge Olevel ends, I know I am gg to be happy. It will not be the same when I see my results. Yes! I am gg to see good results. I need to build interest in my current subject. Melayu/Malay.

Zareeza and myslef. We both are talking most about our memories. We both are looking through pictures and videos. Gosh, if everything turned out just the best, I know everything would be okay right Zareeza?

Oh well, I am gg to stay up tonight and maybe Ill sleep very late. Cause mum said to me tt I need to go masjid tomorrow. 6 am.

I have to pray hard. Yes, and whoever is having their Olevel this year, I wish you all the best.

Love Rakinah

2007-05-25T04:57:00.000-07:00

"Kilat di dalam kilau, kabus di dalam hujan
It is not the things that I am doing,
It is the meaning behind my every move"

That's why I am doing it this way. You won't understand. It is different.

2007-05-24T04:39:00.000-07:00

Evermore- It's too late

Monday morning: hesitate, I can't get out of bed
I'd rather go back to the dreams I'm living in my head
Tuesday evening: pack my bags, I'm heading out the door
I left a box of memories lying on the floor

Ride on, ride till early morning sun
Ride on, like the dawning of the day
It's too late, to let all your feelings show
Go on, til the night is swept away

I'm running from the city lights
I'm running from this empty life
I'm running out of time tonight
I'm screaming out for "Help! Help!"

"Slow down, your moving too fast
Go home, you'll feel better for it
Oh boy, you better stop dreaming
It's all in your head!"

'Cause it's too late now...

Ride on, ride till early morning sun
Ride on, like the morning of the day
It's too late, to let all your feelings show
Go on, til the night is swept away...

Ride on, ride till early morning sun
Ride on, like the morning of the day
It's too late, to let all your feelings show
Ride on, til the night is swept away...

A meal I ate for a day with snacks. Nadiah said "Eh aku sama!" Okay Nadiah. Now I know the real meaning of stress. Your mind goes blank and you can't think. That's why I need to revise my peribahasa again. Right now, they are at the back of my mind. It just need to be search.

You know life wasn't the same ever since this new life starts. Seriously, one comment "This sucks" God damn! I feel like choking you with one heck of a cupid? (Cupid chokehold, get what I mean? Not the title. But me. My mind is full of merepek) Oh wait, this life should go on pause. Leave the soul except the body and brain. I need to delete before Olevel starts. This one of a heck son of a gun... eiyerrrr! I mcm mad woman.

Oh hoi! I didn't know tt actually "Matair" is bahasa pasar. It means fish market language. Get it? I know chinese, india, caucasion etc. dont know.

2007-05-23T04:19:00.000-07:00

"All I asked for is a fun happy life. Get it?"

My spinning head. Oh, the bed is calling me. Mind you, I've practiced and practiced hard. Yet, all I can get is either B4 up till now. I need a B3 yah know? Mdm Badariah said if I score a B3, I'll get 50 bucks just like that. Show the book, 50 dollar note in the pocket. Like touch and go?

So hell! Malay coaching just now was Booooo!!! My mood just now was unexplainable. I know I wasn't being myself. Hell yeah. So I stayed at sch up to six to complete the exta assignments. Im gg to continue this till friday. Oh yeah babeh!!

Im up to the club beat. It balanced my mind like alkali and acid.

Im gg to catch a movie later. Pirates of the Carribean 3. Im the number one fan of this movie. Ohh ahhh!!

2007-05-19T01:14:00.001-07:00

"A mother's love worth a million.
A bf's love worth a digit?"

No. Seriously, believe me! There is another 9 sheep counting to major examination. Omg, aku tk percaya. It feels like there is another 2 years to Olevel. Ekkk! But I know for sure, my mind would be fixed by tonight. I am gg to concentrate on studying and nothing less. No playing games or watching Hikmah as I've already watched all the episodes till the end of Season 2. You all jealous kan? I know what will happen later in the next, next, next episodes. You don't! hahahahahaha. Gundu.

The teachers from my sch are like trying to put in their best. Saying tt we should concentrate on our prelims not our Olevel. June coaching is like 11 days away(right after my Malay Olevel) and both of my science teacher sucks tt bad. I need private tuition and mum says tt she don't care how much she will need to spend on my studies. Best kan? Mum, I need mp3 for studying. How to link tt?

I am gg to practice more in my mathematics even if it is a pass guarentied. Oh well, this shows I have the potential to score A2. I think i think. Nothing less, must be A2. Oh kay, I have passed 4 subjects. No need to be happy cause the are border line. I failed my another 2 subjects with horrible to the bottom line marks. How bagus? I need to pray harder sampai khusyuk.

This was on Monday. Outing with Zareeza the Tall Lady and Firah the Short One. Oh yah, Im Qeena the Ghost.

I was tt crazy. Believe me
Zareeza and Firah
Mata teropong
Nothing better to do
Zareeza and Qeena
Say ma name, Man!!!

Whoever you are. Our outing is always with a 23

2007-05-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

If love was an instant maggie mee,
there would be instructions on how to prepare love.
Ingredients would show what is love made up of.
Nutrition facts would show what is the effect if love was taken.

If love was a picture,
it would say a million words what love is.

2007-05-12T19:45:00.000-07:00

I know. There is another 2 weeks to Malay Olevel paper. I am gg to revise my peribahasa again and start to indulge in Berita harian. Mother's day and Im pleading mum to buy me an mp3 or mp4. Anything tt is worth it. Oh well, how a good daughter I am *smiles away*

I don't have any appetite to eat a healthy diet meal. For now, Im into junks and nothing but junks. My stomach now has a different kind of reaction. I don't know if I am in the good mood or the bad mood. Maybe it is both at the same time. How perfect?

I am gg to meet BF to miggle here and there. Tomorrow is my another paper and I don't have the mood to start revising again. My mind is so cramped up and nothing but hay wires. For now, Im sick. Well, halfy cause Im just coughing out thick whatever. Now I am not in the mood to jump or scream. Shit i call this watabubeh!

2007-05-12T08:29:00.000-07:00

Mum mum mum, You've been there for me
When im sick, you stayed up till late at night
When i need to see the doctor
You didn't went to work. Just to accompany me

Mum mum mum, You've been there for me
You have always listen to what I've said
Buy me things that I crave
Eventhough you've left with little money

Mum, you've bought/cooked me food
You will wake up early just to prepare us some food
You will search for the food I want

Mum, you've spend most of your time with us
Yet eventhough you're sleepy
You will try to stay up to miggle with us

Mum, You've been great
I don't know how much I should repay you
Mum, I love you!!!!!

2007-05-09T09:10:00.000-07:00

Im a girl with many dreams. Many dreams I dream of. I want to adventure around the world, discovering the world. I will the the one who help and cure the animal and people around. I want to be a person who is successful so that my parents can be proud that Im borned. I wish I could think smart so that problems can be solved in a mere seconds. I wish I was confident and brave to overcome all the thick and thins and to stand up for my right.

Im a girl with many dreams. I want to be a rock star and I can beat the drums too. I'll beat the drums like how my heart pounds cos it is never ending. I'll sing out my life experiences to inspire people not to give up. I want to rock the world.

Im a girl with many dreams and dreams are meant to be dreams forever. It is like fantacies, it is never real. But still, I'll build castles in the clouds.

2007-05-06T05:09:00.000-07:00

I feel pathetic. Do you get it? Ho hey, Im feeling sick cos of exam stress and bad weather. Can this get any worst?

New years day- My dear
My dear,
Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
Just don't leave me on my own
Desperate and destitute
A shadow of the former self I knew.

(Repeat)

Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic
I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of this.

My dear,
Is this really happening?
Do these tears mean anything?
How could you leave me on my own?
Desperate and destitute
These seconds feel like lifetimes without you.

Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of this

I never thought that I'd be the one with the weakness
You call the shops and I'll stay up on with the sleepless
It's so pathethic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...

I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...

Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
I'll give you everything
I'll give you everything...

Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of this

I never thought that I'd be the one with the weakness
You call the shops and I'll stay up on with the sleepless
It's so pathethic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...

2007-05-04T00:28:00.000-07:00

Physics in 3 days time, and Physics sucks. I don't understand, 410 don't understand. Thank you lah teacher. You can't compare him with cat sleeping. Ada paham?

Im feeling so lucky, oh yes way! Sri Lanka was tested for yesterday's social studies paper. Almost all student study that topic and of course, clever people will do that question. So chicken nugget, but no 100% guarentee I'll get B3. Maybe a so nice just pass for Social studies cos I sucked in source based.

Ini hari pula. I studied 30 minutes for the next topic "Second World War" & yes, it was tested. Triple the maple happy! Again no guarentee but aku sungguh gembira. Aku penat lah seh. Otak stress boleh buat qeena tidur. Heh!

2007-05-02T02:11:00.000-07:00

This video brings back memories :]

2007-05-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hey ho! Only god knows how tired I am. But still I need to study. Good results means another trip to Kbox.

Yesterday, I went to BF's crib after malay listening comprehension for awhile cos I need to go to Ika's chalet at Pasir ris. Oh well, I was late I know. Im so fcuking pissed that the taxis which drove by as they were occupied except for one, the one I paid. Had kerepek fun and total madness! I went back home late, before 5 in the morning. Hoho, Im supposed to study you know.

Today, I called BF and yes, bad news; he got more worst. He has to spent a couple of days at the hospital. I took a taxi there, so that I could accompany him at the Observation Room as he was alone tere, waiting for an unoccupied bed. Then he was brought to the ward by wheelchair. Kekek like kerepek! I bought him food as he had not eaten since yesterday. I leave the place at 1615 and went to my family's pit at Changi by cab. Many things to eat! Now, Im full. Im back home, and I need to study for thursday's examination.

2007-04-30T23:02:00.000-07:00

Hey ho! A few more chapters and Im done. I need to study again.

2007-04-29T06:19:00.000-07:00

Ni hari, another not really happy day. I went out with my family. & mummy ajak wrong timing. She ajak when I studying. Thankyou, it takes me ages to get myself start studying. Nadiah, aku pikir aku pun kena buat cumne kau buat. Aku nk tidur, smack myself. Aku tk nk belajar, ill sepit my eyes and read(This one i make) Me and my sister were having fun taking pictures. Wait, Only my pictures and her hand one big extra! Prate ice cream scuks, Oreo iceblend rock lah seh!

2007-04-28T09:45:00.000-07:00

I feel so crap ni hari. My head pening fine thankyou

2007-04-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

Lets brainwash myself with negative thoughts again.
Oh why not?

2007-04-27T02:32:00.000-07:00

Im having one big headache ni hari. Mcm fcuk! I went to the library but in the end I study for one god damn hour! So tk puas hati gitu. But nvm, I bought new pens and a new book to indulge with.

The examinatons just now was fine. Not too hard, not too simple. I did get to answer all those questions. Learning the sec 3s to 4s peribahasa did paid off! Yeah, and qeena is so happy you know. I did my best for English Composition. My first time experience doing my paper at the Hall. Woah! Butterflies in my tummy.

Any hoots, I met Zareeza just now near East view. Terlepas bus stop gitu kan? I had to walk in the rain with my head spinning so sakit. Home and I really to study again. Sigh!

2007-04-24T03:38:00.000-07:00

"I need a miracle"

Every girl wants her shopping spree and that includes me. A month to my June holidays means four months closer to major exams. How about that hur? I have a tight schedule which I did just now in school. Okay tell me how to entertain my BF and study at the same time? I don't think I can. Cos Ill never concentrate. I'm not free till 2300. Tu-what! 10 minutes more and I need to offline, bathe and study. Gagaga!!!

Shopping was on last Saturday and that was when my feet starts to hurt. Qeena wore high heels when she did shopping. Stupid right? I know(Smiles) Me and BF searched for the stuffs to buy. Bf's stuff is a white bag, mine is a new black pants. We headed to Bugis first and had our lunch there. We then headed to town. I bought my new pants at last. Woah! Mcm happy gitu kan?

We both went to city hall. Met his younger brother and friends there. We headed to Suntec City and damn only god knows how my leg feels. We went around the mall aimlessly. Ninanenina lah! Hahaha. We had dinner at Cavana. I drank my milo so sedap. After which, we headed home. I had to drop off at Simei cos I need a taxi trip back to home sweet home. At that time, I felt that Tampines Interchange to my home was like stepping on fire.

Sunday was nothing special. Stayed at home and ate maccaroni.

School was as usual on monday. I headed to Bf's crib after school and went back home at eleven. Study and slept. Today was normal too but I tend to fall asleep vey easily. Dream dream dreaming of you. Accompanied Nadiah to Popular Bookstore then to LJS to et our lunch. Heh! Qeena gemok, do you believe me?

2007-04-23T09:34:00.000-07:00

Hey, what's the big idea?

Yo Mika.

I said,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down,
I said,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down.

Sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down.
Say love, say love,
or love's gonna get you down.
say love, say love,
or love's gonna get you down.

I went walking in with my mama one day,
when she warn me what people say,
live your life until love is found,
'cause love's gonna get you down.
Take a look at the girl next door,
she's a player and a down right whore,
Jesus slows up, she wants more,
oh bad girls get you down.

Singing,
Sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down.
Say love, say love,
or love's gonna get you down.
say love, say love,
or love's gonna get you down.

Mama told me what I should know,
too much candy gonna ride your soul,
if she loves you, let her go,
'cause love only gets you down.

Take a look at the boy like me,
never stood on my own two feet,
now I'm blue, as I can be,
oh love couldn't get me down.

Singing,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down.
Say love, say love,
or love's gonna get you down.
say love, say love,
or love's gonna get you down.

I went walking with my mama one day,
when she warn me what people say,
live your life until love is found,
or love's gonna get you down.

Singing,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down.
Say love (say love), say love (say love),
or love's gonna get you down.
say love (say love), say love (say love),
or love's gonna get you down.

Mama told me what I should know,
too much candy gonna ride your soul,
if she loves you, let her go,
'cause love only gets you down.

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, lollipop.
Whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, lollipop.

Sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down,
say,
sucking too hard on your lollipop,
or love's gonna get you down

2007-04-20T22:11:00.000-07:00

Nadiah & A'kim aja

Someone said I need to start writing my diary everyday and I mean in a book and not in blogspot. So I am gg to the Popular bookstore later then to BF's house. I find my hair merepek, who agree? I need another haircut please times 9658933567!

Examinations are around the corner and I need to study you know? Omg, I myself and You know that I've been repeating that over and over again. "I want to study" Guess, I am starting to revise from today onwards. Maths, I want to get A2 at least & that is my only hope.

Oh, life is better in many ways, I think. No reasons for me to do suicide. No betrayal, I think. But I know, I may have one in the future & I know why. (*it gives me the creeps, okay?)

2007-04-15T09:29:00.000-07:00

Nadiah and Hakim, Aku nnt edit gambar krg okay?
Abeh nnt aku post! Puas hati?

Just now, I went to BF's crib and met Kid, his brother's GF at his home. As soon as I reached, BF called me in the blue moon. He isn't supposed to actually contact me but he did. Like aww so sweet and right timing gitu kan? Oh well, when I was at his crib, it was like a trip back to memory lane. Somehow, it makes me miss him more.

As soon as his family reached home, I accompanied his mum to unpack her bag for awhile and she gave me a packed of keropok ikan for my mum. His mum is so sweet, awww.

I can't wait to shop with him. Some money are put aside for it. I want a camera and a mp3. New tops, new bottoms. New jewelleries. Im such a shopaholic gitu kan?

2007-04-12T04:22:00.000-07:00

Hello and Im feeling great. I am gg to meet Zareeza tomorrow and damn, I am getting a new gorgeous haircut. I hope, I hope it is a good hair cut eh? Not like last time. People can say my hair now looks like a bush tree. So messy outside, makes me so irritating in the inside.

Four more days, Bf is going back to Singapore but he will be returning home next Saturday. Sad eh? Whatever it is I can overcome any situations cos maybe he will be in Singapore only once in three months if he is gg to Australia and buy me something good?

These few days, I've been doing alot of test. Science test, Maths test, English test, Social Studies test. I did badly this time and I know that. So there is no possibility that Ill pass all my subjects again. Bad eh? Oh kay, maybe or must be I should actually study study study. I've been repeating that myself 954678219475 times! What to say? My mind always get so distracted. I should be like Bf who concentrates when he study unlike me. I dream when I study. The paper can get so blank that it can make me sleep. Yaw!

2007-04-05T21:47:00.000-07:00

Fifty more days to my malay o level and Im lack of encouragement. I think I need to indulge myself with a can of red bull or a cup of caffeine to make me start reading rather than playing the computer or day-dreaming. Further the more, Im weak in my malay subject. You don't need to say "Qeena is a malay, but how can she still be weak in it" I know it is pathetic, and repeating it like how many times the sun rise and set. I don't really practise my malay at home, Im more to the english speaking kind of person. So ah lian!

Four more days to me&bf one month anniversary. On that day, I will be in my room shaking legs, studying while bf is lost in the jungle. I don't know why I've chosen a guy undergoing his national service as a boyfriend. I haven't regret my life to accept him.

Im supposed to go to the salon and have a beautiful hair wash, dry and cut there. But due to bf is going to the hospital to do check up and his cramps all over his body, I have to postponed it on the 21st. At least, Ill be 4x15 + 58 dollars richer. Shopping is now playing in my mind. I want to shop all the stuffs that I want. An mp4 for a birthday gift and a new digital camera for my family's need. Shopping makes me high like as if I have taken ecstacy three times. How high is that?

2007-04-02T06:14:00.000-07:00

Let the pictures talk;

2007-03-27T04:17:00.000-07:00

I am trying to keep up. No more pinning my eyes to the lap top or the televisyen for long hours. I am thinking of getting myself involve in dancing. Salsa maybe? Something new. Or maybe drumming!

Saturday:

Saturday was fun. At 1720, I got ready for dinner at the hotel to celebrate mum's birthday. I met my sisters and their bf at there and we proceeded for dinner. I didn't expect to see Mr Farizal there. So I started off with salad. Then japanese cuisine, seafood, malay cuisine, chinese cuisine and desserts. I'd tried to dip the sushi with wasabi. I know it was obvious that it is spicy or gas-out-of-the-ear. You know, my tears dropped as I was about to swallow the whole thing. My family laugh out loud. Mum had her very own birthday suprise which was as planned. A W880i for her birthday present is something she had ever wish for the past few weeks.

After which, I ate raw seafood. I tried to eat the oyster, raw! Overall, it was nice and better than what I'd thought. But I didn't have the guts to try again. The other cuisine was superb. But I left all the other half of my stomach for dessert(the sweet stuffs!) That adds on to the calories. I had the chocolate dipped fruits, ice cream with chocolate fudge and sprinkles on it, cheesecake, chocolate cakes and many more. The deserts was yummy gum gum!

After dinner, we planned to watch cinema at gv max vivocity. But there wasn;t any great movie show. So me and my sisters with their bfs stayed at orchard while my mum, dad and granddad headed home. We planned out for our night and came to conclusion to go to K-Box. We had 3 whole hours to sing sing sing. So we went back home at 4am.

Sunday:

I had sore throat cos of the 3 hour singing. But this wasn't any excuse for me to meet Bf. I went to his crib and not knowing we won't be going out to town or something. Spending time at his home was the last thing I thought of. But anyway, it was normal and nothing special. Except that I had spend more time with his family and I met his dad for my very first time. I headed home after that.

Yesterday and today

School school school. Yesterday, I slept after school. Today, I had dt after school. Now, I want to study :]

2007-03-23T05:14:00.000-07:00

"The memories we had are never the same like any others"

Okay, this is no time for play-playing or fool-foling around. You know, I've been listening to malay songs. Woah! The ones like Ungu or Irwansyah. Yah yah yah! Im so engross with their songs. It sounds like yummy gum gum!

I've yet to improve my language. Yah and duh! Huhu, where to start eh?

Yesterday was fine like not as usual cos it was better than fine. You udrstand? I met dear bf somewhere around his crib, bumped into him when I was heading to his crib. I accompanied him to CC to pay his brother's motorcycle fine and headed to his crib at last. I love Mustakim and he is cute. So I played around with akim and had fun with his mum. I went to meet one of his friends under his block and akim came along with us. Again, I went to his crib and studied there with his younger sister. It all ended at 9 o'clock. I ate my dinner and headed home sweet home.

Oh kay, it is friday now. School as per normal but I slept during Social studies for the first time. I've got the time to sneak and sleep. Yeah! I need Mr Farizal back bad! I met Zareeza Pish at my crib and got ready to go out to orchard. We first headed to White Sands and bumped into Manda Panda. I bought my socks and headed to Orchard by train. Oh well, so tiring seh! Zareeza Pish bought a skirt and a flip flop. Qeena Belo bought a bottle of mineral water and an oreo ice blend.

Yay! Tomorrow is so much finer than today. Mum's birthday tomorrow and celebrating at a hotel. I can be more fat lah...

2007-03-20T06:44:00.000-07:00

You you you, too much unfinished assignments makes me crazy like Einstein. They are as a mountain high and tomorrow is the date due. "Vu-shit!" O-levels, cramps me. I should make a big sign like on the hot air balloon which says "Oi! Don't be lazy lah, study gogo!" The hot air balloon can fly around me, pestering me to stop hanging out too much. Maybe I should keep to my old habit. Right after sch, go home and get ready for revising at the library.

Oh well, I am so fed up! I can't seem to weigh below 50kg or 49kg. I think I shouldn't be seating around but at least, do some exercises once a day. How about that? Im gg to eat tuna sandwich during recess and Im gg to skip lunch. Snacks are for rewards only :]

2007-03-18T01:25:00.000-07:00

Today is a sunny Sunday & Im persiring like as if Im on a hot pan. Mum is not feeling well and I accompanied her to the Raffles Clinic to visit the doctor at 9am. After which, we went to Shop & Save to buy uncooked food. We bought a lot of it! Yum yum, mum owe me a tub of delicious ice cream. I cooked lunch for today. Maybe I want to turn myself into a new leaf. Bf doesn't know that actually he had made me want to change, I want to be like him.

Yesterday, I met his mum, anak sedara and younger sister under my block. As my mum was about to go for a jog near the park, she followed me downstairs. I know she kepo. Hahaha. We went to POP(Pass Out Parade) which started as soon as they reach their camp after their 24km march. The march end at 0900, I think. We(Me, bf, his mum, anak sedara, younger sister) went to the hall to watch a clip of their days during their camp. Comment: "Hilarious!"

After much patience to wait for him to pack his bag, we met him downstairs and proceeded to his crib. He slept as soon as he settled down while I spent time with his family. After the pizza, playing around with his anak sedara, surfing the pc, accompanying his younger sister to the mama shop and watching his mum cooking, he woke up.

He had his breakfast and lunch at the same time as I had my another piece of pizza. He played pc as I talked on the phone with Zareeza. His mum wanted us to join them(his whole family) to the Metro Sale. So we both joined them. We ate ice creams, cheese hot dog, sweet corn and nachos with cheese. Bf bought some stuffs while I bought nothing. Bf accompanied me home eventhough his leg was in pain. So sweet of him. Awwww...

We spent 16 hours minus 8 hours(nap) minus 1 hour(pc games). All together 7 hours. You owe me 9 hours to spend time with me! Yawwww... People, I can't wait for tuesday outing with him.

2007-03-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

Dear little ms muffet,

Yesterday, it feels like a month I've been waiting for tomorrow
Now, it feels like 21:57:08 I've been waiting for tomorrow
Every Saturday is fun
This enthusiastic make me run

Today, I want to write my post rhyme like do re mi
For example, "Boyfriend, do you miss me?"

Your smile make me as happy as a clown
You colour my life like the colours of gogo power rangers
On weekdays, Ill feel down
I can only wait till midnight to feel your presence

If I can wait my darn ex boyfriend for one year,
Why can't I wait for my monkey boyfriend for more than a year

You might like to run on a gym machine
But I prefer to do no sport
Still, we are together like the nail and the skin
Eventhough we have different interest

I like the way you say
"I will show you how to be more confident"
It makes me feel that you really care about me
With the words that you said

You might earn three hundred and fifty per month
And people with your age earn more than one thousand per month
But I am happy that at least you pay my meals

You are as cute as spongebob squarepants
To call me again to say that you love me
Eventhough, we have end our late night call

I love to solve ten minus three which equals to seven
It's been everyday that I've been repeating the maths problem
Because it sound like 10 March 2007

2007-03-15T22:20:00.000-07:00

The error is not because of your computer. It is because of the template. I'll redo it ltr okay?

Oh well, yesterday was average. At first, I had no plans but late night calls from bf. Zareeza was a superhero! She saved qeena banana from dead boredom. I got ready to meet her at Changi Beach with her other friends. Dinner was kuaci and am I losing weight?

I head off back home at 10 pm cos i was late late late to call bf. Har-har-har! Sorry Zareeza, at least you wont be late kan?

Im listening to Lily Allen non-stop.

Just now, I went to sch to take my oral. Ms Neo PP said that I've done well in my picture conversation and conversation. Hip hoorays for qeena and this year's CA1, I've got L1R4- 16 points :] Yeah! gogo power ranger!

2007-03-15T11:00:00.000-07:00

"Dear little ms muffet,
Aku seriously cinta boyfriend aku lagi banyak dari smlm.
Love,
(Signature here)
Your owner lah"

Somebody splash me a bucket of cold water. Today is ~~average~~. Nolah! Nari gerek. Anyways, I met Zareeza just now and we went to 800plus to met the other people. Boyfriend boyfriend, I've got no letters to say. But eh! Thanks for everything lah. You triple baik! Just now, his dear cute mummy called me to talk about Saturday. "WOW!" Im gg to meet her on Saturday for the first time. You know, his mum is friendly(smiley face here) Mummy already know more about him(wider smile here) I know, im irritating

2007-03-10T06:22:00.000-08:00

The reason why that I hate love; Missing someone who is not by my side! And seriously, when I met you again, Im gg to hug you badly mum, dad and *giggles*.

Woke up early this morning at about 0730. I can't shut my eyes, seriously! I met my "friend" at tampines interchange and proceeded to Kallang to meet his friend. The three of us headed to Harbourfront to meet his other friends and they were 3 hours late! No comments. We went to sentosa for my first of my life sea-bathing there!! Omg! And people, Im seriously tanned right now. I've applyed sunblock three times. I can't see myself being dark anyway.

Two of his friends went back home while the others went to their own ways. Me and his friends had our dinner at banquet and seriously, mknan jepun tu muak! Hahaha. Aku dah tk nk mkn tu mknan lagi siak. Boyfriend fetched me home and seriously, I was back home before my curfew. Thanks to him.

Zareeza; Im happy for you and I don't know if I did the right thing. Most importantly, "Ill tell you ltr.." Hahaha. Secret lah siah!

2007-03-07T05:23:00.000-08:00

Oh my god! I really miss my parents alot. I hope they are safe and what so ever. It have been 3 hours that I've last seen them at the airport. They are having a vacation with my aunty and family. It would be such a 4-days bore staying at home without them. You know? I love them lah siah, banyak banyak!

2007-03-04T23:49:00.000-08:00

Im food poisoned, I think. Strange, cos my family didn't even puke and shit alot unlike me! and ini mana fair! I spent nearly 3 hours, waiting for my queue to go for consultation and I'm never to go to polyclinic anymore. I don't know, why the old people can do that nearly everyday! Whats their intention to actually crowd that area and make me wait so long for my turn. Not fair, how can they ever be sick so frequently. Brainwash them!

It was just a luck. It's been three hours when I last ate my lunch. I didn't puke, oh yeah! Puke is the last thing that I'll wish for. I can cry siah!

Yay, tomorrow sch! And eh? Aku lum buat homework.

2007-03-03T19:42:00.000-08:00

I've been gaining weight, gaining weight, gaining weight. I've reached my extreme limit. Maybe I'll skip breakfast and dinner. Ill eat only for supper and lunch. How about that? Ill burn my fats and bring back the old me. However, I'll have my oh!reo ice blend once in a week. A treat for myself. Oh yeah.

I love my oh!reo ice blend too much.

I've had breakfast today with my family and grandmum. Maybe I'll skip lunch and dinner. Supper is wholemeal bread.

Grandmum story:
Yesterday, I went out to celebrate Ein's sweet sixteen birthday. Before twelve, I headed to Zareeza's crib and after which, I went to Tampines Mrt. We went shopping at Orchard. Zareeza bought a top shop top and another top at Far East Plaza. Rakinah bought an Escada perfume. We met our friends at City Hall MRT and proceeded to Esplanade. We set by the river side and headed for shelter as it seems to rain.

While we were waiting for the other friends to reach, I saw Shalihin and we chatted for awhile. We headed to Marina Square where we thought we wanted to have dinner there. It was crowded & we searched for pizza. No pizza delivery due to the heavy downfall. I bought a cute balloon for Ein as a birthday present. We waited for so long but still we cant order any pizza. Some of them went to Lavender to buy the pizza.

We headed back to Esplanade and waited around an hour or so. Ein cut her cake and we had pizza after that. We looked forward to the fireworks but there wasnt any. We headed back home and Walao! P.P siah. Panas, Penat.

Thanks for everything eh?

2007-03-01T04:22:00.000-08:00

2007-02-26T02:27:00.000-08:00

Im craving oreo ice blend with pearl like bloody hell. I've ate alot these pass few days and like what the hoot! I just hope one dance per day burns 1kg of fats and in one week, ill be losing at least 7kg. Gitu macam, banyak punyah gerek! Im getting migranes over revising.

3 Months to malay olevel and how bad can that be?

I've not yet memorise or understand the malay peribahasa or even this means I've to ever get ready for my Prelims. I've not yet read a book to actually widen my mind and improve my malay language. And what I am gg to say! I've scored A1 for my chemistry and B3 for my fnn.

2007-02-25T23:36:00.000-08:00

Way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it true without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I fee
lI need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
And if you help me to start again
You know i'll be there for you in the end

2007-02-24T07:02:00.000-08:00

Hello, my new bestfriend; cookie monster. I don't need a new teddy bear, my cookie monster is ever so wonderful. Love, qeena

Yesterday, I did not attend x-day and I've missed my last x-day. Okay whatever! Ms Nadiah went to my crib and we left for towning with Amanda and Isabell. Before that, we met each other at Passenger Service, Tampines Mrt. We headed to Vivocity for myself, window shopping; for themselves, shopping! I was ever so dissappointed as I didn't have that much money with me. But I actually love our day together, out from school. Isabell left us and we headed to pasir ris beach for picture taking. And the beach was ever fun! We headed back to our crib by seven, I think.

Today was study day. I and my friend changed places to study. From blok 800plus to 400plus to Afghanistan macd. Hoho, we can be that crazy eh?

2007-02-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

Oh hello people! And im ever happy than yesterday. I mean much more. Aku tahu asal aku happy, cuma aku tidak mahu bilang kamu semua! I've got a big smile on my face, bebeh! I've got this hippa-doo-dah attitude. Im so hyper like I'd never seem to before. You make me jump to the height that I'd never reached before. Oh please, right now, Im screaming my tops off! Look people, bare with me, Im happy-oh-oh-qeena

And tomorrow is cross country at bedok reservoir! I bet you all, I can say that less than 8 people might attend. Guess who?

2007-02-20T06:06:00.000-08:00

Hello, Im qeena with a happier side of me from last year. You understand, understand not? I dont care lah siah! Zakwan is an adorable baby with a temperamental side of him. He loves aeroplanes and sweets. He is my cousin!

These few days, I've been with my family, aunties and cousins. The horrible part of camping was the toilet! And Im so concern about hygiene. I didn't go to the nearest toilet actually cause I know that it would be dirty due to the irresponsible crowd in the toilet with the stucking of sanitary pads all over the cubical, wet floor(there might be pee in it!), unflushed toilet bowls and unfunctionable toilet flush. I cannot tolerate and never would I. Actually, Dad was too good to be true. He sent me to the toilet far from my pit, riding on his motorcycle for the first time. And it was ever great! I love you, papa-yah! The very best part was the gathering of people whom I have not meet for more than 5 months. And I wasn't myself these few days. I simply did anything I want like no one's business. I've made sandcastles, chased kids, rid scooter and played water. How much kiddy am I? I dont know!

February 19th(the second day of camp), my body started to ache and till now, I couldn't tolerate it. People started to run and packed their belongings due to the bad weather. Havock giler! It rained like Singapore never did before. The grass is wet and same goes to my tent, inside out! After my afternoon nap, I realised changi was nearly empty except that irresposible people again dont know how to clean their ass! Plastic rolled across end to end. Matress being left in the middle of the open space. Tissues, rubbish, boxes and "you can simply name it" were all over changi beach. Aku kesian itu bangla tau! Hahahaha.

And this blog is long long long. Hello! Im happy like I must be. Actually, I've got to start doing my best in my sudies. Aku so motivated ah!

2007-02-17T01:28:00.000-08:00

Hello beautiful people! Yesterday, someone made me giddy up happy. Tomorrow till morning tuesday, Ill be at changi, having a beautiful pit with my family and cousins. We want to make it besar-besaran gitu? I so cannot wait to meet the small kids, eventhou they might be irritating sometimes. And tuesday afternoon, im gg out. Like yah, yah! I know Ca1 is on wednesday.

2007-02-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was fun! I met up with Hakim after school and bumped into my mum. Huhuhaha! We headed to Bugis and ate at Banquet. After which, we walked around Suntec City and i got gaga crazy over the chocolate dipped fruits and ice creams. It was expensive but we went to Musical Fountain for fun! We headed to Marina Square and again gaga crazy over chocolate dips. And what you know? The price was twice than the previous one. We ran to Suntec City before it close down and took our last supper there. Please that chocolate dip ill remember forever. & Mr Hakim thank you for everything arhs! Hahahaha. Lain kali beli jam okay?

Today, school was fine and Farhan(my sister's bf) bought me an adidas watch. Thank you mr! Hahaha. Okay, this weekends, Im having a bbq at changi with parents. Yay!

2007-02-13T05:18:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to dear Khaddijah!

2007-02-12T07:05:00.000-08:00

Im relleh inlove with this song. I hate the fact is that the past are always in my mind. Describe it with one word. Nina-ne-nina! Valentines = love. Huhuhaha! Wo ai wo pu ceh tao(Did i describe it correctly? "I love i dont know") Damn the cupid in tutus!

Late congratulations to the people who pass their O-levels with colourful colours. Your my idol babe! Im imgining myself with the A1 A1 A1. Yeah! Repeat me twice ah. I don't care if now seems like I can't achieve it. But I must use all my positive minds to it, and archieve it all. Make my mum and dad happy. Make my neighbours kiak face down, upside down sekali! (Sorry ah, geram sekali gitu)

Im so happy to the people who are truely inlove. Ill be in your feet in no time. Aku cinta cookie monster! Sungguh blue. Happy advanced Valentines. Happy advanced Friendship day. Sayang semuer kawan-kawan saya! Korang make life happy gitu.

Cheke bom bom cheke bom bom!

2007-02-12T06:55:00.000-08:00

Marques Houston- Circle

You know whats funny?
Seems like every time I try to forget about you,
My feelings pull me back in.
You see, its crazy,
Cause I got somebody else,
You got somebody else.
But you and I both know,
That it really is
But still,
You know what Im saying, B?

Ran across a picture you took of me,
and you crossed my mind
I still hear you sayin you love me,
when I close my eyes\
If I didnt go away to school,
Then where would we be?
Probably still together and somewhere happy.
If Im supposed to be moved on in a new relationship darlin,
Then why are you still hauntin me?

They say

[Chorus]
If you love something, let it go,
And if it comes back then thats how you know.
I got to the stop light then I made four rights.
Now Im back where I started,
And youre back in my life.
the further that I go the closer I get back to you
I say I moved on,
Til Im reminded of you.
Can somebody help me?
To help me get out of this circle (out of this circle).

I drove past your house the other day,
I didnt even mean to,
I went the wrong way.
I ain't seen your mama in a while.
When she looked at me, she smiled,
And asked me if Im doing okay.
Took everything I had not to bring up your name,
And wonder if you came home for the holidays, yeah
She asked if I could stay awhile,
Cause you had come in town
And you were just five minutes away.

[Chorus]
If you love something, let it go,
And if it comes back then thats how you know.
I got to the stop light then I made four rights.
Now Im back where I started,
And youre back in my life.
The further that I go the closer I get back to you
I say I moved on,
Til Im reminded of you.
Can somebody help me?
To help me get out of this circle (out of this circle).

To anybody whos listening to this,
If you got the person that makes you wonder what if,
Let me hear you say yeah (yeah),
Say yeah (yeah)
Say yeah (yeah)
Oh yeah (oh yeah)
If you understand how I feel,
Then grab that person now to let her know whats real.
Let me hear you say yeah (yeah),
Yeah (yeah)
Yeah, hey

[Chorus]
If you love something, let it go,
And if it comes back then thats how you know.
I got to the stop light then I made four rights
.Now Im back where I started,
And youre back in my life.
The further that I go the closer I get back to you
I say I moved on,Til Im reminded of you.
Can somebody help me?
To help me get out of this circle (out of this circle).

2007-02-10T19:55:00.000-08:00

I am so yet very motivated after the three-day "I am gifted, so are you" program. It also had boost my confidence to a very high range that I can imagine myself in things I can't do or dont belief that it can ever be attained. The program which cost me almost 200 bucks which was deducted in my edusave account, is really worth it.

I dont know, I find myself in the cats attraction or the fan part. Maybe they are attracted by my confidence. Hohoho, Im talking bullshit. Yesterday, I went out with dear Zareeza to the fund raising fair at Dunman Secondary. Waited for her at the canteen and proceeded to the hall to watch the live band. Okay kelakar! Then we headed to haunted house. Walked all over Dunman Secondary till 12 and headed to Vivocity. Tiring siah!

We ate at Banquet and headed to buy sweets at Candy Empire. I also bought sotong head at Old Chang Kee. I know, I ate alot ever since the starting of this week and for addition, I've spent all my money on food! This week saving was on just food! Bad eh?

We headed to Esplanade and walked around. Talked crap near the entrance then went to Tampines Mall. I ate cheesecake and the more I eat eh? It reminds me more of blahblah. And you know what? As soon as I got home, I found out that mum had bought us cheesecake, the half-hearted one. Cos part of it was given to nenek sayangs. She bought chocolates and everything so nice! Chicken wrap and noodles for dinner. Aku so nk jadi gemok.

Today's plans are actually studying for my upcoming CA1. While cupids are aimming and shooting bows and arrows, East View Scondary is having Chemistry DTs. Wth! Hahaha, but so what? It is not like I have someone to spend with for Valentine. So aku tk care.

2007-02-06T02:15:00.000-08:00

I can say that I'm so giddy up happy right now!
After knowing that I've been craving to ride my dad's two wheel ride
for more than a month, it shows me that I haven't got the time to be
with him at all! And i mean just the two of us. Bad kan?

I hope ill score much more better marks in my CA1
It had been so long that I completed my English Paper 1 just in time
Cheers for Qeena! Hohoho, Im improving in my compo.

Saturday; Actually I had a workshop for my malay compo from 9 to 11
But it was dragged to 1130. I slept as soon as I reach home.
I was supposed to meet Basith at 230 in the afternoon.
But i woke up at 3plus in the afternoon, I know i late siak!
I got ready and went out at about 4 in the afternoon.
After months not meeting, at last!
Skafest was boring, to me. I should have went to hardcore gig siak!
I bought a new chain for my necklace which broke.
Very saddening cos it meant alot to me. 15th brithday siak!

Sunday; I watch soccer match. For the first time, I watched it whole.
Sunday mendak kiak!

Monday; Damn aku mls nk gi sekolah!
I realised ms chua confiscated my books. Huhu! Need to pay 50 cent for it.

Tuesday; Hakim Mosquito! Pe jeh pe jeh. Hahahaha
Nari aku tk concentrate in class sgt. I was building castles in the air.

2007-02-01T06:46:00.000-08:00

Today i ate alot, jump alot, hyper alot and alot alot alot.
Today's hot topic is Lion Roar! Singapore won over Thailand for soccer
and i wish i could go Thailand to support them.
Shout the "toot toot toot toot toot BUTO!"
Please dot mind about the vulgarities :]
Yesterday, I watched the soccer match with Iskandar and friends.
I dont know soccer match was that fun. Hahaha!
Im so back in the 90s or smth. I conferm next match,
aku nk pergi and that takes me another ah ah ah years!

These few days, I caught the worst cold along with a fever
and that's why im happy for now cos' im fine today!
No more sore throats, running nose and a bad cough
which is such a pain in the throat.

I can say im still that laid back person. I know i shouldn't have.
But eh! Im a kid in the heart. I still want to have fun and to never grow up.
Gagaga! Stop it oh kay. I know lah im freaking talking alot.
There is like too much to say about these days.
School is different and it is celebrating their 20th Anniversary.
Hooray for East View Secondary School!
7th to the 9th feb is Adam Khoo's program and i can say i cannot sabar.

Last tuesday, me and aisyah did our own shopping.
I know that wasn't the right timing.
It doesn't matter and at least i got the whole changing room to myself
except that aisyah got herself hurt cos of me! Okay im sorry lah beb,
aku tk sengajer. Kaki kao okay kan? I love my new clothes
except that im selling

A TEN DOLLAR SIZE 6 TANG TOP- TOPSHOP! BROWN COLOUR.
Pls ah i need to get rid of it. Interested, tag me.
I just bought it last tuesday and think im not gg to wear it anymore.
Im not interested in tangs.

2007-01-29T03:03:00.000-08:00

Sammie- Come With Me

[Verse 1]
Oh no no
I know you think it ain't my place, to say how I feel
but I'm going to say it anyway, cause I gatta keep it real
I know you're tired of tryin..to make it be something that's truely (truely love)
Girl it kills me everyday to see you in tears
and it amazes me the way you put up all these years
You be thinkin, tryna make it work (make it work)
But you keep gettin never, oh baby listen to me.....

[Chorus]
You don't have to wait, I can ease yo pain
You don't have to be left out in the rain
Don't you say you fed up, tired of the love
whatever you need, I got it, Come with me
You don't have to stay up, Layin by the phone
You don't have to ever feel like you're alone
Don't you say you're fed up, tired of love
whatever you need, I got it, come with me.

[Verse 2]
You're the type that always said, you don't need a man
Who's ganna make you're heart stop, over and again
And now you're telling me that you're ok (High)
But you don't realize you're getting more pain, (ya ya)
And I ain't never been, the kind to steer you wrong
If you trust me as your friend then trust me with you heart girl
It'll take awhile to understand that you need yourself another man (Woah wow)

[Chorus]
You don't have to wait, I can ease yo pain
You don't have to be left out in the rain
Don't you say you fed up, tired of the love
whatever you need, I got it, Come with me
You don't have to stay up, layin by the phone
You don't have to ever feel like you're alone
Don't you say you're fed up, tired of love
whatever you need, I got it, come with me.

[Breakdown x3]
Don't give up girl (Don't give up girl) [x3]
You don't have to do it baby [Repeat]

[Chorus]
You don't have to wait, I can ease yo pain
You don't have to be left out in the rain
Don't you say you fed up, tired of the love
whatever you need, I got it, Come with me
You don't have to stay up, Layin by the phone
You don't have to ever feel like you're alone
Don't you say you're fed up, tired of love
whatever you need, I got it, come with me.

Oh baby, don't give up on love shawty, cause I'm here, I'm here....

2007-01-27T10:22:00.000-08:00

You know, as the sky fades darker, my friends tends to be more crazier
That is what i like about them, my crazy friends :]

Its about 230 in the morning and i've got nothing better to do
Friendster-hopping is fun with ska songs surrounding me
That is so gerek kan? Skafest on the 3rd feb, woah!!!
Hip hip hooray, like i care?

Talking 'bout guys, i am into it- Oh yeah bebeh!
People, aren't guys with colourful long sleeve tees cute?
Uhgagaga- I'ves got nothing better to do

People, i relleh appreciate colours
Colours are too nice to be true
Like flowers, they bloom my eyes
Whoot whoot whoot! Mcm ape kan?

I need a friend phone late-night hogger!!!!!!!!
I need money by the end of 2nd february

2007-01-26T04:02:00.000-08:00

"Im so sad like i want to cry like that"

Saturday pictures from millitary band...

2007-01-22T03:08:00.000-08:00

I've got uncompleted assignments which need to be done by tomorrow
I am so jam packed and seriously, aku kene rest ah!
No revisions for last weekend. Bad eh? But i just love Saturday too much

Saturday plans:
Rizwan got the tickets for me and I came to the concert for a last minute plan
I went out with Azillah, Syafirah and Syazana. We all went shopping for awhile
Oh kay, it was a rainy day and we got a little drenched
We headed to Toa Payoh HUB to attend the Military Band
Overall, it was fun. At the end, I went back with Hakim and gang
So sad that I have to return his jacket lah. I fell so inlove with the smell
Grr-ahhs! Before heading to my crib, we went to marina square
for a short while to bowl. It was jam packed so we went for arcade.
Oh well, marverlous it is :]

Sunday is boring and it is also a drag! Monday, school kickarse!

2007-01-19T05:48:00.000-08:00

"I need a geek song to dedicate to myself"
- Gyeah! Im in deep pressure with notes; papers are relleh killing me!

I need more money and seriously, my wardrobe needs an extreme make-over.
Oh well! Ill save money & shop till i drop on the june holidays.
So people get ready to be booked by me :]

I miss my december days & I relleh spend time with my crazy friends.
Im feeling so great! Colour pens makes me so giddy up excited!
Maths makes me happy and im starving myself. Hooray!
This is how i lose weight, spend more time studying rather than eating.

2007-01-14T06:56:00.000-08:00

"Hell yeah! Muse is coming to Singapore on tuesday"
-Fag! The cost of the ticket is way out of my budget

I know; Im gg to regret okay?
Regret that i didnt get my chance to meet the vocalist face to face
Oh well; Maybe to you he isnt that good looking
To me the way he played his guitar just make a girl's heart melt
I should have saved up 50bucks & took Azfar's 50bucks
After which, jump on the spot along with the loud banging music with him
But oh Shuddup! I know i cannot siah

Oh well; I do congratulate myself for now
Totally, I spent some time on books and notes
I just need to do more revision on my sec 3 syllabus plus sec 4
Weekdays are packed with books & weekends are packed with enjoyments

It's just too good to be true. A hotty like you make me gaga crazy
Zareeza you get what i mean :]

2007-01-08T04:23:00.000-08:00

Everytime i wake up from bed, ill remind myself that it is a brand new day
Stop wasting time cos it is precious. Olevels are important.
Oh well, scoring at B3s(65 & above) for my whole subject is possible.
Even if i always had scored average marks. Im preeteh confident.

Im having an eating disorder cos i eat alot. Im growing babeh!
Oh well, starting this night & i mean tonight, im studying till end of olevel.
I score & get good marks. Have my diploma certificate & start my career.
That is so like my dream of dreams!

Business woman, i am! Im going to be! Oh yeah. Hoho..
Remember qeena :] Have a good career girl.
Hoho! Gorgeus thanks. My resolutions, oh well

Target: 15 points excluding one bad subject
Combined humans(history&geog) & Combined Sci(physic&chemistry)- B4
English, Malay & Maths- B3
Food & Nutritient- A2

2007-01-07T04:34:00.000-08:00

Oh lalala. I just got back from an outing with friend.
Too much to say but ill cut it short for your own convinience.
The story starts when i met him at mrt & headed to shaw house.
That's the best comfortable seat you can ever have in the whole Spore.

After the movie watching, gg through shops & long john silvers,
Iskandar headed to his granny's crib & me, home sweet home.

Before heading back home;
I went to Century Square to buy a pouch, shiny ring & ear studs.
I just adore shiny or colourful stuffs(*twinkling eyes)

I cant wait for school & i dont know why. No seriously! Im not kidding

2007-01-06T04:11:00.000-08:00

I just crave too much & dream of getting every single one.
You know i need both tops&bottoms. But looking back;
I only have 15bucks & that money would be finished by the end of tomorrow.
Too bad & im so sad like nobody cares. But looking to the bright side;
Im gg to spend time tomorrow alot with Iskandar(*urr-ahh)

Going through people's photographs&im jealous. No seriously!
You know what, i own neither a digital camera nor a camera phone.
Relleh! Im so sad&still like nobody cares.

Im going to save my money&buy the next new phone.
I don't care; it is so ganna be better than yours!(*tongue sticks out)

Lily allen rawks my socks, dont chu agree?
I want to play the drum babeh!

2007-01-05T04:01:00.000-08:00

2007-01-05T03:14:00.000-08:00

"Rawk on babeh! Dance with me"
- Shout out Yaw! This word makes life more cheery.

I found out that mango is still on sale! But nvm, ill go for the next stock :]
I ♥ my school just enough. I ♥ hello panda strawberry.
I can't wait till i save up all my money & gogogo for the sales.
I can't wait for tomorrow. All the bonds again with friends outside school.
I can't wait either for sunday. My friends would know. No comments.
Oh wells! Another i can't wait till i have maths lessons.
Numeral problems lights up my mind.
Get my pen, take a paper&solve it. Im maths geek. You want me?

2007-01-04T07:59:00.000-08:00

I need 16points to get into the course i want. So i should atleast have an A1 or smth.
Ill just influence my mind to study more & shop less. Hooray!
Hope it could be done in a mere seconds so i can start tomorrow.

My hair is nice. Hahaha byebye

2007-01-03T02:39:00.000-08:00

Yaw! Hello gorgeous. I relleh do like school for no reason.
Im getting ready for 0levels. Thats like in a few months(*Freak outs)
Yesterday, i celebrate everyone's birthday especially for daddy.
He got an electric guitar&radio control car. I ate alot like nobody cares.

Hell yeah! Im so gonna buck up okay. Im okay with geek people.
It is time to mix around with study freaks.

Okay tadi after school, i went to buy hair dye&headed to Amanda's crib
Nadiah followed us along&my hair smell weird.
But the colour is okay lah. I still prefer my previous one. Ohgaga.

Sayang! Aku tk kesah ah lao die gitu2
Aku maseh tetapkan sukakan die. Heh heh heh.
Yah lah shuddup qeena.

2007-01-01T17:41:00.000-08:00

"Thank zareeza for everything babeh!"
-Jump scream&shouts. Yay! I spend my new years eve outside at last!

Yesterday, i went out from home
at 2100 to meet Zareeza.
We planned to celebrate
the new year at esplanade.
Before which, we were supposed
to go mango. Too late babeh

I searched for new tops
&bought two at below 10bucks.
Last minutre shopping babeh!
&bought a belt
I need another new jean/pants you know?

We went to Pasir Ris NTUC
cos heading from esplanade to home
would be tedious.
Oh well, i got to know with her friends
(*actually friend's friend)
1159; Everybody was screaming
with the clock. My throat sores now.

A guy insisted to buy me a frape at Mccafe. Gee, thanks (:
We headed back to the stage&they were playing techno songs.

Whoot whoot! After one hour or so, everything just went to haywire.
No comments. Zareeza&myself wanted to follow them to city hall.
But her dad called up to tell her to come back home.
Gyeah, we went home&nice knowing you alls.

2006-12-31T00:51:00.000-08:00

"Could someone be so kind to ask me out"
-I relleh want to see the fireworks&do shopping; Im in desperation

I want to spend my last minute of 2006 with somebody crazy.
Whooot Whooot!

2006-12-30T20:14:00.000-08:00

"30th & nobody asked me out. How exciting(*sigh)"
- Making funny faces to cheer myself up. Booo

I woked up early today. 0615 okay? I need to buy fresh foods for tomorrow.
Im helping up with the cookings. Yummeh!
I've got plans & they are: Buy school stuffs&finish up homeworks
Queerly, I was too desperate to talk about my situation
& I told mum that i need love(*Gaga) She was outgoing okay?
Mum is too great to be true; I love her like noone cares

1334; Amanda asked me to
accompany her to shop for clothes
We went to Spore Expo for metro sale
& after which, we went to town
Searched for nice clothes
they are either too expensive/out of stock
I want either the mango white tee
or the top shop green one
I relleh was on tight budget
to buy a bagpack for school
& Seriously, i got a nice one
for twenty-nine bucks okay?!
Im obsessed over hot gorgeous guys
you know; Can i have them?(*giggles)
I need one
for tomorrow's new years celebration.
They are too hot to be true
Uh-gagaga! Yummeh.
Grr-ahhs(*pathetic sounds to excite)

2006-12-29T04:50:00.000-08:00

"I want to see the fireworks with you tomorrow babeh!"
- Dardar, im thinking of Dardar. Another dream ons

I bought a present for sweet daddy after years i'd never did so.
That is so bad of me. Everything was planned. I cant wait for 2nd Jan
Thank you Jabez for accompanying me. Whoot whoot! I owe you one doller

"Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice"
- Im listening to song i used to play to remind of you&me

Oh me the god! I've never felt this way for so long
Babeh, I need a hug like yours to feel so preety secure
You've stole my heart like noone did.
How the heck did you do that? It is some kind of magic

"Diaries are like video tapes. Your the ghost, past are real"
-Landscapes&Sceneries of falling sunrays
I wish i could rewind pause&play the memories like on tv

"I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?"
- Solitary moments makes me want to come back home

2006-12-28T07:13:00.000-08:00

Hello girls & boys.

Im preeteh fine & excited you know?
Myself & Zareeza went to metro sale & shopped around town area.
I bought tops at 20 & below.
I lost one of them anyway. Wasted you know?
Altered my new jeans & i love it the much.

We went to Cathay Dhoby Gaut & met up with Sha & his friends.
Whoot Whoot Whoot! At one time, i disgust him & now im gg out with him.
Like what the heck kan? Hahaha(*sigh)
We watched snow cake the movie & i dont relleh recommend it at all.
It was border line. Home me & zareeza headed. Yeah! Short at sweet babeh!

2006-12-27T13:25:00.000-08:00

0800; Zareeza im still awake

2 pills of subsribed steroids dont make you sleep one whole day
My wrist is numb, My leg have cramps, My back aches
I can't snap! Oh my the god. But I can clap (:

These past few hours i've been crapping in the dining room alone!

I drew/jot dowm my memories/danced/sang/making funny faces/computer screen staring/jogged/ran/skipped/jumped/whined/drank/picking boggie/assignment making/Shaped paper into a ball/Played with cat/Kissed the cat/Hummed/Butt flatting/Farted/Music listened/Nagged/Calculated/Wrote/Body scratched(*Random!)

2006-12-26T04:50:00.000-08:00

"Im growing fatter & who still wants me?"
-After each morning wake up, Ill pinch my abs while whining&nagging.

1025, im already up my bed
& jumped around to burn my fats which multiplied while i was asleep.

Stretching my lips & brushed each&every corner of my mouth.
Spits my blooded saliva with colgate bits.(*Hey im showing not telling!)
Tv watching is boring. Assignments making is overstressing.

Slippery slipper shouldnt be used to run during rainfalls.
Doctor subsribed me steroids pills for my weak lungs
Cold weather kills

"Whining & your reading"
-This is random

Completing another pile of assignments given by boss
While my lips sang the nanana song & My fingers complete the song
It goes blahblahnananininunu

Glued to the bed while fixing my mind
Another overstressed session

"Come on! If you miss me, show me.
Butt head, dont be afraid. I dont bite you. I just need to meet you"
-Biting nails & making a weird marking line

I need to swallow steroid again (:

2006-12-24T21:00:00.000-08:00

(*Myrandomthoughts)
This week is gg to be super busy for me you know? Grr-ahhs! Pls i want extended holidays. Too much assignments to finish up by school reopens. My hair is still at its bright colour & i hoped the teachers are gg to be stupid in the head so they can let me off. Seriously, i hate it when you have to think in other ways of life! Negative thoughts you know? Why cant ever everyone be a positive kind of person. Life would be much more easier right? & now i havent yet solve my problems, thanks to this butt head & this stinks. I want/need money. I need more tops/jeans/shoes/accesories/bags. Huahahahaha! Thanks, im nagging. Yaw!